wheel of tears

This post is all over the place - but so am I right now.

Blood and Tears…

Two potent elixirs that our bodies produce - when released, it is often under duress.

One of the many things I love about working with Precious Metal Clay is that I can have an idea, and within an hour, I can hold that finished thought in my hands.

Working grave dirt into the clay was the first experiment with adding substances - and then this morning, after completing my Morning Pages and experiencing a profound release of emotion, I collected my tears and worked them into a small bit of the clay.

This idea came to me through my favorite Tarot reader who gave me a powerful reading at the beginning of the year. It has been something I have wanted to do since he mentioned it - but the tears would not come.

Now - they don’t want to slow - but that is grief. You move from feeling numb and believing that you have an understanding of what you are going through - to feeling lost, out of control and navigating emotions you believed were resolved.

So from that comes the Wheel of Tears. A Talisman I created for myself as a reminder that grief will always be with me. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of my brother, my father, my grandmother.

In the background - through the mist of this landscape, I hear a song from when I was a little girl. “It’s Alright to Cry,” by Rosey Grier featured on “Free to Be You and Me” - a record I played over and over again on my Fisher-Price record player.